Non-Humane Service

 

"CABAL" has written another essay. This is one MEP&DBP wrote some years ago and so, like we all do, he has changed his perspective a bit since. This is a snapshot of his feelings in the summer of 2012. (2012 was my last portering year. And even in that year I only enjoyed six days as a HP.) This piece is written in CABAL's usual poetic style and expresses his feelings of frustration and demoralization as he goes about his duties in an environment that neither supports his honest attitude nor protects and cares for his welfare. The issues he raises I have covered myself; an incompetent bureaucracy, untrained and overworked civilian staff, pointless rules invented to achieve nothing and just tick boxes. It matches a lot of my own thoughts and feelings at the time. I still sometimes find myself slipping back down into such "red pill rage". There's nothing wrong with that in small amounts. You'd have to lose your humanity not to experience it sometimes. CABAL himself calls them "a few bitter memories". The problem comes when that is all you feel, every day and every week. If you find yourself in that situation then you need help. That is not an insult or criticism, just a fact. Don't be ashamed to ask for it from anybody you can trust. The world is not all misery and evil, even in the NHS. It can just look like that sometimes because misery and evil have a habit of jumping to the front of the stage drawing attention and making themselves very conspicuous, thus covering up everything else. Source: https://dreamingspireart.wordpress.com/2024/07/25/non-humane-service/.
See here for background: https://hpanwo-hpwa.blogspot.com/2024/07/the-work-by-cabal.html.